[Atsushi doesn't really think about it in such lines of thought. Mostly because he wouldn't be as happy as he is now without Ranpo and everyone else at the agency. They truly were the most important people in his life, bar none.
Is it even possible to repay that sort of thing? He isn't sure. But he wants to be there for Ranpo more than ever now, knowing what he knows.
He doesn't what to think about the fact that if he goes home, there might not be a next time.]
You really don't have to, Ranpo-san... I-I'm just happy that you're here.
[He pauses, hesitating a long moment. It might be wrong of him to request as much, but...]
...But maybe, if you want to do something for me... you could try not to spend all day in bed? Do something for yourself.
[A hobby, a job, whatever it is-- he knows Ranpo needs something, has always needed something.]
It's not Poe-san's writing, but the bookstore I work at has a mystery section! I could bring you some.
[But also-- he leans up and reaches out over the table, and flicks Atsushi on the forehead.]
Look-- I don't make a habit of this. Do you really think I could get away with sulking in bed for days on end when I live with Yosano-san? I'm out almost every day, you know-- this world has too much to see and do to waste my days sitting around! I even learned how to ride the trains all by myself so I could see all of it!
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But... you know I eventually lost that game, right? And spent a few days as a ghost. It was...
[He pauses, forcing his face into a smile for a few seconds before dropping it, as if remembering he doesn't have to do that around Atsushi anymore.]
...it was the most frightening thing I've ever experienced. I thought I was going to stay that way forever. And all things considered, it wasn't exactly good timing. And I only actually came back the day before last.
So just-- let me sulk about it right now! You said to do something for myself, and letting myself actually deal with this instead of pretending it's fine is doing something!
[And then, sitting back in his seat, mumbling:]
Even if that something is just... sitting around sulking until your friends notice.
[Oh.... oh. That flick gets a tiny jump and a widening of eyes.
Atsushi listens as he speaks, and feels bad as he continues. Of course being a ghost would be upsetting for Ranpo, especially considering what had happened. Of course he just needed time to deal with it, to process and relax. He shouldn't be prodding him like this for taking care of himself.
Honestly, it's probably a healthier way of dealing than some of them had, all things considered.]
[...Okay, that gets a bigger smile out of him. Which is probably a little mean, but Ranpo looks so cute--
He quickly remedies the problem however, by getting up and tugging his chair with him so he can sit right next to Ranpo, wrapping his arms around him in a big hug. Now he can hug him as long as he likes!
It's good that Ranpo is just a bit smaller than him, he fits nicely in his arms.]
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Is it even possible to repay that sort of thing? He isn't sure. But he wants to be there for Ranpo more than ever now, knowing what he knows.
He doesn't what to think about the fact that if he goes home, there might not be a next time.]
You really don't have to, Ranpo-san... I-I'm just happy that you're here.
[He pauses, hesitating a long moment. It might be wrong of him to request as much, but...]
...But maybe, if you want to do something for me... you could try not to spend all day in bed? Do something for yourself.
[A hobby, a job, whatever it is-- he knows Ranpo needs something, has always needed something.]
It's not Poe-san's writing, but the bookstore I work at has a mystery section! I could bring you some.
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[He's touched, really.]
[But also-- he leans up and reaches out over the table, and flicks Atsushi on the forehead.]
Look-- I don't make a habit of this. Do you really think I could get away with sulking in bed for days on end when I live with Yosano-san? I'm out almost every day, you know-- this world has too much to see and do to waste my days sitting around! I even learned how to ride the trains all by myself so I could see all of it!
[...]
But... you know I eventually lost that game, right? And spent a few days as a ghost. It was...
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...it was the most frightening thing I've ever experienced. I thought I was going to stay that way forever. And all things considered, it wasn't exactly good timing. And I only actually came back the day before last.
[...]
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So just-- let me sulk about it right now! You said to do something for myself, and letting myself actually deal with this instead of pretending it's fine is doing something!
[And then, sitting back in his seat, mumbling:]
Even if that something is just... sitting around sulking until your friends notice.
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Atsushi listens as he speaks, and feels bad as he continues. Of course being a ghost would be upsetting for Ranpo, especially considering what had happened. Of course he just needed time to deal with it, to process and relax. He shouldn't be prodding him like this for taking care of himself.
Honestly, it's probably a healthier way of dealing than some of them had, all things considered.]2/2
Well, he'd always had slightly better hearing than most, even without activating his ability.
He... wanted them to notice?
....He wanted to be comforted.]
....You know... you could have just said that last bit from the start.
[He smiles softly, sheepishly.]
I'm sorry for pressuring you, though. I was just worried about you.
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[HE'S BAD AT THIS]
[BUT HE WANTS COMFORT]
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He quickly remedies the problem however, by getting up and tugging his chair with him so he can sit right next to Ranpo, wrapping his arms around him in a big hug. Now he can hug him as long as he likes!
It's good that Ranpo is just a bit smaller than him, he fits nicely in his arms.]
Nope, I think I got the message.
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...thank you.