[Poe better appreciate the sheer amount of restraint it takes not to just make a joke about how he's dating five people. But he knows Poe. And he knows this probably wasn't easy for him.]
But it would make me curious to hear who it was! So, who else did you smooch last night?
We probably should have. But now's as good a time as any, right?
[Maybe this would be a conversation best had in person. But then, it might also be easier for them to have it like this. There's a reason they tended to dance around the subject, after all.]
I already told you it doesn't bother me if you want to be with other people besides me. Even if it were more than just physical. And I really mean that! I don't get jealous about things like that.
But I'm not going to pretend it never bothered me that you did. And I still worry about talking to you about certain things because of it. Even if I know you can't help it.
[Although he wishes to throw his phone down and wait for this to resolve itself. Even though he knows it won't.]
I often overthink and allow my own insecurities to get the best of me. As much as I hate to admit it. Thinking of ways to stop being that kind of person drives me to madness at times. But I should've never let it cause you grief like this. I'm sorry. I can't ask for any forgiveness for it. However going forward I'd like to be better. If it's possible... Little by little...
["I don't deserve it but please be patient with me."]
Since you can't see my face right now: I'm smiling reading all of this.
[Ranpo never held Poe's feelings against him. In a weird way, it made him happy knowing Poe still wanted to be with him, despite the fact that it was so difficult to come to terms with Ranpo's polyamory.]
But you know, maybe we've been going about this the wrong way. We're dating, and this is something that affects both of us. So we should be working on it together!
Do you think it would help if I talked about my other partners with you sometimes?
[Well? He does like the idea of working together with Ranpo. This is merely a new context for it.]
You're suggesting that as a potential means of desensitization. No, rather it humanizes everyone involved. I aware that they must make you happy. Just not how. So it's certainly worth a try...
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You know you can always ask me anything.
What's on your mind?
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Would it upset you if I ever wanted to kiss someone besides you.
Hypothetically?
[Nailed it.]
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[Poe better appreciate the sheer amount of restraint it takes not to just make a joke about how he's dating five people. But he knows Poe. And he knows this probably wasn't easy for him.]
But it would make me curious to hear who it was!
So, who else did you smooch last night?
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Atsushi.
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Ranpo, are you sure that's alright?
[He can't see his face right now. So what if...?]
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"Is it really all right for my boyfriend to kiss my other boyfriend?"
Gee.
I don't know.
I guess I really have to think about this.
[Okay he'll answer seriously in a second but come on now.]
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No you don't!
Even if you put it that way it would've been remiss of me not to ask!
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I guess we've never really talked about it in depth, huh.
But it really doesn't bother me!
If anything, it makes me happy, knowing you're having new experiences and warming up more to the people around you.
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No one else but me is allowed to be your rival, okay?
That's different!
[#priorities]
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I wouldn't go that far!
[Even if Poe has been tryharding for months now. He still doesn't talk to a lot of people. But that indirect recognition makes him flustered.]
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But I can promise that no one else on this planet could compare to you nor your intellect. You are the only one who could ever be my rival.
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<3
Now come on and give me the details!
So did you two make out?
Who kissed who first?
Wait, what am I saying, obviously it was Atsushi.
[HE NEEDS THESE DEETS IN HIS LIFE]
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Ranpo!
Couldn't you just deduce everything?
I don't have to give embarrassing details when you could already know!
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What do you mean "obviously"?
[The track record Poe... It don't lie.]
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And obviously I mean obviously because it's obvious?
Since Atsushi can be pretty forward with affection and all.
[Who's track record tho?? Both.]
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...It was Atsushi.
I think he could tell I wanted him to.
We didn't make-out, no.
He was very gentle.
Does that much satisfy you?
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But that doesn't mean we're done talking about it, sorry.
How do you feel about it?
Kissing people other than me?
1/2 shitposting
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Immensely guilt-ridden.
If I am being entirely honest.
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Because of how jealous you got when it was me?
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Perhaps we should've talked about that first.
[No use denying it. They both KNOW.]
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But now's as good a time as any, right?
[Maybe this would be a conversation best had in person. But then, it might also be easier for them to have it like this. There's a reason they tended to dance around the subject, after all.]
I already told you it doesn't bother me if you want to be with other people besides me.
Even if it were more than just physical.
And I really mean that!
I don't get jealous about things like that.
But I'm not going to pretend it never bothered me that you did.
And I still worry about talking to you about certain things because of it.
Even if I know you can't help it.
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[Although he wishes to throw his phone down and wait for this to resolve itself. Even though he knows it won't.]
I often overthink and allow my own insecurities to get the best of me. As much as I hate to admit it.
Thinking of ways to stop being that kind of person drives me to madness at times.
But I should've never let it cause you grief like this. I'm sorry. I can't ask for any forgiveness for it.
However going forward I'd like to be better. If it's possible... Little by little...
["I don't deserve it but please be patient with me."]
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[Ranpo never held Poe's feelings against him. In a weird way, it made him happy knowing Poe still wanted to be with him, despite the fact that it was so difficult to come to terms with Ranpo's polyamory.]
But you know, maybe we've been going about this the wrong way.
We're dating, and this is something that affects both of us.
So we should be working on it together!
Do you think it would help if I talked about my other partners with you sometimes?
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You're suggesting that as a potential means of desensitization. No, rather it humanizes everyone involved.
I aware that they must make you happy. Just not how.
So it's certainly worth a try...
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How everyone makes me happy?
Cause I think I'd rather talk about that in person, so I can see how red your face gets when I get to you.
[This is a serious discussion so naturally he has to be a goblin about it.]
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/tucks this in